lack of motivation
falling sick before tests
too much clubbing
too much drinking
i have literally lost all motivation for anything. i feel like a living corpse in this undead army just roaming about to get this stupid degree. this degree for what? to live this same cycle over and over again. to get a job to work to earn money to provide your family with money to buy things you like. eat sleep work repeat? okay maybe cancel out eat and sleep.
i have a test tomorrow at 11am, i'm not even back in hall yet. my finals are next friday and i am completely clueless about PC1431 and MA1505
CAP 2.0? lets go
there is a perpetual look of grief in everyones eyes. i guess i feel slightly comforted knowing that i'm not alone. but what is life when you are living but you'd rather die.
there is a complete lack of meaning in my life.
on a lighter note, my loyal reader since 2009 (yes i smiled at her and she sat beside me during tutorial on the first day, and on the third day she told me she had been reading my blog since sec 3 LOL) has become one of my good friends in NUS. i guess thats one of the only amazing parts of being in university- you get to meet friends that you would probably keep forever. Hi mengting :-)