pretty flower ugly roots

so....great
jc makes everyone gain weight FUCK

i gained 5 kilograms after almost 3 months of not weighing myself
i started on my diet right after weighing myself lol lets hope this determination stays

gonna try out this cabbage soup diet lets hope it works
i'm gonna make sure i shed at least 7kg what the fuck how could i gain so much weight and NOT REALISE

my life is just a dark abyss lol

sometimes i can look at pretty girls and feel so fucking shitty about myself
especially when my pimples start to pop out and when you gain FIVE KG
and since i'm so short i just look like some stubby tree trunk
FUCK
i hate myself so much
i hate looking at myself in the mirror lol

sometimes i can just look into the mirror and see everything i hate
and these "sometimes" are becoming increasingly regular
after promos which would end in a weeks time i'm going on a strict ass diet and i'm gonna work out for the first time this year
i'm gonna start loving exercise lol

praying that i lose 7kg

oh my god i still remember the days where i used to be what, 39 kg?
those days are LONG GONE LOL
i really didn't appreciate my body then
now i'm like some stubby short fuck omg i HATE MYSELF

MY LIFE IS OVER