pretty flower ugly roots

i don't even know why i'm bothering to clear myself up but since so many of you are disturbed and affected (god knows why) by what i wrote

THE UNDERLYING MESSAGE OF MY POST DATED 2ND JULY 2011 IS

i have done many things i am not proud of in my life. i have done stupid things. and it makes me sad when some people intend to follow these examples. instead of living freely they cage themselves to things they deem cool, things they see on the media- smoking/anorexia/mutilation etc. i am not claiming to have never done any of the stated before. i have, and i do not condone these actions. its just strange to see how other people actually want to follow in these footsteps. because the bad things i did then, are adversely affecting me now. if i could, i would definitely turn back time and change the way things were then. life would be much easier haha

i am not basing this on just observations because i (and most of you) know the extent of this truth

so if you think i wrote that to spite people that are "searching for an identity". i wasn't. i can't be bothered to lol. i was in fact reminiscing about my past

and hence my post

so um you may stop commenting with 1000 word essays filled with stupid remarks like "don't act like you're not referring to anyone!" or "you had a piercing last time and look like a bull so you're contradicting yourself" because i don't think you realise how stupid and childish you sound