Okay so apart from weight issues, (ok lol tell me which girl doesnt suffer from weight issues) I AM CONTENTED WITH LIFE
O levels please give me my life back
I can't fucking believe Os are in 8 days. What the fuck, i can count the number of days with both hands. I am afraid i don't live up to my (and so many other people) expectations. I have nightmares of getting back results lol. I don't want to update my blog on like january with "ok...so guys i got a 28 for os" or sth. I WANNA BE LIKE "I GOT MY FUCKING 6/7/8/9 POINTS MAFAKAZ. HA! THATS FOR SPITTING ON MA FACE AND TELLING ME IT COULDNT BE DONE" I am so nervous, so so so so so scared for sciences (ESPECIALLY CHEMISTRY) and now i realised i havent memorized my physics definitions properly. I had 5 hours of solid math tuition today. NEVER FELT BETTER. I rewarded myself with eyebrow threading (lol) my eyebrows are now well defined haha.
I hate O levels..... my skin is suffering the most from this. My eyebags are all showing and i don't have enough sleep. I sleep at 3-4am every fucking day just trying to cram shit into my head (not working ha ha) and i wake up fucking late. My god my health better not take its toll on me. My period HASNT COME. Motherfuck i want it to come so badly now I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE MY PERIOD IN THE MIDDLE OF OS.
Tonight, i'm going to- memorize more physics definitions, and complete studying organic chemistry followed by a chemistry paper 2. I swear i do not regret applying for DSA. I'm so fucking lucky i'll get into my dream jc even if i don't score as well. -sigh of relief- But still i want to prove to everyone i could have gotten in just as well with my score.
Yup thats all for my rant i'm just so fucking stressed right now I can kill a cow
On a lighter note everything is going to be over in 25 days. YES AH